Just got home. So tired. Today I bought a dress for my bestfriend's debut. Good for her. She's finally gonna be a lady. I'm really proud of her.

Right now I want to be alone somewhere. Somewhere where I could write and read as I please. But it seems that having some time alone is now a luxury for me. It seems that whatever I do, someone is looking. Scrutinizing. Sometimes I want to build a cocoon around me and come out when I've taken control of my life.

But don't get me wrong. I am happy. Just wondering what I could have been if things were different. But not that I want to change anything. I love my life. When it comes right down to it, I am pretty much blessed. And I thank God for that.

My faith is strengthened everyday. With every trial, every fear, every pain I face I am strengthened. I learn something new. I think that's the thing I really need. Nothing else.