Sweet Serenity

Season of snow powder always come
Although we are mixed up with a mass of people
we are looking on the same sky
Blown by the wind, and we are chilled by it

I may not know everything about you
Nevertheless, I've found you among 100 million of
people
There's no proof but I'm very serious of it

It's impossible to live in the same time with no single quarrel
If we can't be honest, happiness and sadness are just meaningless

If the snow powder may whiten deep to our heart
Could we both share our loneliness?

I would press my ear near to your heart
And go down deep into the place where I hear that voice and meet you once again

We want to understand each other
It's me who softly brush the surface
Just by tightly gripping your numb and cold hand
We are tied to each other

Snow powder is too fragile
In front of us, keep on leaving stains on the rough asphalt forever

Snow powder does not rely on time, moving our heart
Nevertheless, I'd still like to keep on protecting you

If the snow powder may whiten deep to our heart
It will cover both our loneliness and return it to the sky...

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Funny how your past can make you appreciate your present and give you a glimpse of your future. Stumbled over my past today. I guess it's true that your past will never be completely forgotten. It's a mistake to forget it, instead we should accept it and find peace in it.

Find peace in everything.
Find peace in pain, fear and worry.
Find happiness in sadness.
Find rest in weariness.

Starting over again with baby steps. Holding on tighter to the things that matter, and letting go of the rest. By now I know, I'll get there someday.

Just realized something today. Didn't know it would affect me this much...

*Closing my eyes, shutting my mouth, and starting to listen*

Everything's spinning- like a carousel ride gone terribly out of control. I'm fumbling in the dark for something solid to hold on to. I'm slipping, drowning in this bottomless pool.

Everything's changing. Whoever said that change is inevitable is definitely right.
Feels like I'm doing everything wrong. Again, drowning.

Can't I just press pause and just catch my breath? There's nothing else I can do but to run with everybody else. It seems that everyone's pulling me in different directions. I'm ripping.

It's YOU that I hold on to. It's YOU where I pull my strength from. I know that you're the solid thing I've been looking for. Thank you Jesus.

I was planing on buying my mom's present tomorrow. I found this really cute top, and I am sure that she will like it. I already asked her permission to go out tomorrow, and she said yes, the problem is, my grandmother said she'll come with me because she wants to pay our internet bill. O.O I do love my grandmom, but I really can't trust her to go gift shopping with me without "accidentally" slipping and telling it to my mom. -.-

But no need to worry. Time for plan B. What's Plan B? Well, I'm still thinking. T.T

I just can't stop smiling. What a great ending to this day. The smile I have now will last until I go to sleep, until I wake up, until forever.. (hopefully) :))

Thank you Lord for these simple moments that make life so special.Ü